About the Born Agains. And the only reason I even remembered was because (long convoluted story) my ovaries decided to go into overdrive and remind me, hey, you are a fully functional female, so I developed a crush on a new guy at work. His name is Desmond but he goes by Dez. <3 Dez! But as I was not stalking him in a creepy way, at all, I discovered he's married. Great. But on top of that he came to work yesterday wearing a hat that said "Jesus. Don't leave earth without Him." Even more great. Not only do I crush on married men, I crush on married Jesus freaks. Is it just me or do they seem to get married very young? There's my boss who's 22, Dez, who can't be any older than that, my cousin, (the one I did all the food for her wedding) who is 18, and several people I have been in classes with over the years, not to mention that I went to church with, back in the day.
Which brings me to this point; I can't accept that we are inherently bad and do not deserve God's love. We are evil! There's no difference in me than in a murderer on death row, even though, you know, I have never actually killed anyone. I've been really angry at someone, angry enough to maybe hurt them, but I don't think I have ever in my life actually wanted to kill someone. Not even TDC. Hell, even the pastors claim to be dirty filthy worthless pieces of trash. Why is that? Because Eve ate the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge? Okay here's a couple of questions: if the tree of knowledge was so terrible then why did God make it in the first place? If God is omnipotent then why did he let Satan tempt Eve? I know what the Born Agains would say--because he gave us Free Will. It was Eve's choice to eat the fruit. Yeah, but according to them Eve was a total innocent. She had no what we would call "life experience", no reason to not trust Satan. She didn't know who he was. She didn't know why God told her to not eat the fruit. How could she have understood the concept of death, if nothing had ever died before (according to my former pastor all animals were herbivores and immortal). Now, if I had a child, and I saw a man approach her and try to give her drugs, would I just stand back and say, well I told her not to do drugs, it's her choice to be good and refuse or be bad and take them? HELL NO! A child is not capable at all of really understanding just how bad drugs are, and if this nice man is telling her how fun they are, then what is she supposed to think and do? So what the hell was God, the merciful everloving Father, doing letting Satan lead Eve into temptation? Who, again, according to my pastor, was childlike in her innocence? It flies in the face of reason. You are supposed to protect your children from predators, not tell them one simple thing, "Do not eat of the fruit of the Tree of Knowedge of Good and Evil", and not explain any more than that, and leave them vulnerable!
And another thing--they like to harp about how God gave us Free Will, to be able to choose to be good or evil. But it seems to me that once we exert our Free Will and choose to be Christians, we're supposed to give it up and let God take over our lives. I'll never forget one thing I read in a devotional book; where a youth pastor was counseling one of the members of her group, and she asked the girl if she had been reading her Bible and talking to God lately, and the girl confessed she hadn't. Well that was the problem! She wasn't getting her directions from God anymore! Because we puny humans are not able, at all, to make decisions for ourselves. And what pisses me off even more about this scenario is that Born Agains use this metaphore of God as the Loving Father taking care of his children. Because children are willful and need direction. So, what about Eve? Huh? Where was God then? Didn't she need direction then, more than ever? And in any case, as all good parents know, you can't take care of your children forever; you have to let them start making their own decisions and learning from then. They grow up, and the best you can do is hope you didn't screw them up too bad and they become successful, happy adults.
Obviously I don't believe in any of that anymore. It was far more likely that Adam and Eve represented a typical couple of their time, and the story was created to try and explain away all the Bad in the world. And again, it gave the patriarchal Israelites a reason to subjegate their women; after all it was "their" fault mankind fell from grace.